Do you ever just sit back and watch life pass you by? Do you ever just wish there was a pause button in your life; so you can enjoy that beautiful moment for just one more minute? I watch my children playing in the yard, or in the park wishing I could just hold on for a little longer. Now that the summer is ending, it has really hit me that so many moments are going to happen without me. They will be at school for most of the day soon, and I am honestly very sad. I am happy at the same time for the little break I will get, but mostly just sad.
Every time a new school year starts time speeds up and before I know it my kids are another year older. Following that year is an even faster summer, that I can never find enough days for all the adventures I want to share with them. (Sigh) I wish I could just find that damn remote to press pause for just a few moments. Why is it going by so fast, and what happened to my precious little babies that needed mom?
Everyday these beautiful little people I created become more and more independent, and I thought I would be ecstatic about it; but I'm not. I love being needed by my children, because they give me a sense of purpose. What am I going to do when they don't need me anymore? I know they need to be more independent, but I am just not ready to give them that yet. I also know it is about them and not me, but I don't care I am going to be selfish a little longer.
I hope I do not sound like a crazy obsessive mom, because I know I am and I would hate for everyone else to know...lol I just love them so much, and soon it will be so different! My husband and I have started teaching them to have a little more independence and do more for themselves; but mom is not so good at it. I give in and do so much more than I know they need me too, but it is just hard to let go after being home with them daily for the last 4 years.
I try so hard to capture photos and videos of my children thinking it will make the moment last longer, but it doesn't. Don't get me wrong I am glad I have taken all the photos and videos I have, but it is nothing like hitting pause. It makes for a great memory later on, but as for staying in that moment...its no pause button. I use to look at it like a pause button, but I know in reality that it will be years before I see it again, and my children will be so much bigger and wiser!
I preach to everyone to capture that photo or video unedited to share with your children later in life. No one wants all their memories to be edited and posed, because that is not real!! I love having beautiful edited photos to show off on our wall or social media, but I am all about a real picture of our reality. I may not always post them or share them, but I have put them in a little time capsule for our future use!
So take the time to spend precious moments with your family when you can. I know many have busy lives and that makes it hard, but do not let your routine take over your life. You will miss out on so much if you do not step off the main road and enjoy life for what it is. When I look at my children and my husband all I can do is smile, because we may not get to have all the time in the world together; but when we are together life feels so surreal.